i’m actually mega excited to go away to irvine right now. it’s just, everything coming on me so quick, it’s a bit jolting to be honest. i didn’t really want to admit this, even to myself, for fear of sounding a bit .. freshmen.? but i actually am also really nervous about leaving home.
you know those movies where the girl has a big something waiting or her far off in the future so she settles into her life and then out of nowhere, everything is pulled out from under her and she’s thrust into her destiny. though it sounds all kinda of cliched ridiculousness, i feel that way right now. all this time that i thought i had to say goodbye to all the people i love is just, gone now.
and i know, i know, that irvine is only an hour away and i can come back as easily as i go, but to me, it feels like i’m going for real whenever that’ll be. like, i’ll never see this place again. like i won’t ever really be “home” again because, where will home really be.?
this is probably stupid.
i’m just a little overwhelmed.